Boring Petulant Me.
I was riding in the car with MumDad and drove pass a Golf Course. Apparently, when I was young, I really wanted to be a golfer, however, mummy said to wait because it will cost alot.

Then just now, they said that I should go for the classes there, at that very course. Then again, I have no equipment and to top that, I no longer have that interst in golf as I used to then.

Then they start to talk about how I am not as out-going as they both used to be.According to them, Mum is a runner and loves dancing while Dad is a great at "I actually forgot what he said". But whatever. And all I said was "That's because it is not in my blood. All those talent ya'll had, all wen to Brother."
*I was pretty heart broken at that very second, considering this talented-less that I am has been the whole issue for some time now.

Then again, they said that I did not to try or accept that invitation when want to be taught. However, I think I have tried. In fact, I think I did try.
I have experience at least, I tried Dancing, Bowling, Swimming, Tennis, Volleyball, *Frisbee, Rollerblading, Photography and Cheerleading.
Man, I suckballz. I am so boring.

What the hell am I suppose to do.

Early This Morning.
Got a message this morning and it was not a good text.
Hate it when people ruin my early days. Not like they do not know I am a morning person. HATE HATE HATE i tell you.

So I guess it will not be my day today.

By the way, So Much For "I Don't Wanna Make You Unhappy Any More". SLAPYOU! SLAP!

Changed.

Most of ya'll will probably realise that I have return to my old skin. only because people like "Waniee" is complaining about my font size. ahahahh!!

However, I am still loving that "Dark Lovely" skin.

So anyway, I spent today out with Haf and Waniee at OCC, for tennis. hehe.
It has been freaking long since I last meet up with them. ahahahh!! So all of us had alot to talk and tell each other. However, Nadirah was unable to join us due to her trip to Kuala Lumpur.
*Safe Trip Nad.

So anyway, it was great spending time with them.
AT LAST WE GET TO MEET UP!!

I have been missing Hubbi alot. I want a hug!!! I NAKkkkkk..

Till then, take care people!! =D

Addicted.
Will be out with Waniee and Haf later in the day for a Tennis session at OCC. Ahahahh!! I am nothing but Tennis for now. It used to be, playing balls games with Brother but then he stopped and continued Skating while I am left with Tennis. ahahahh!!

I am missing Hubbi so much. I am hoping to run into him at the Stadium later. Hopefully I am not too late. hehe.

In addiction to my addiction, I am hooked on to the game of "Tai Ti";That card game. Well, I thought it was rather a, "not fun game" but it seems like I am hooked.
*Hubbi taught me how to play it. hehe. =D

Till then, loving Hubbi.

Game.
Just came home from Hubbi's rugby game at Singapore's American School. It was not a good game though. It ended earlier then it should. ahahah!! Discipline.
However, the Tamoko Lions played better then the last game I went to. =D

Till then, I miss Hubbi already.

Back from Tennis
It has been a long time since I last held a racket.

Met up with Waniee to past her, her shorts which I owe her for months already. I am so lazy, she only lives 3minutes away and I did not send her shorts wehn I no longer need it. I am such an Arse.

Till then, I think I have problem with shiting everday. The thing is, I cannot shit everyday when others can and I think there is something with me. muahahahh!! I strong! ahahahh!!

take care!

We Both Know.
February is almost in, not yet in, but Almost. I am not expecting anything out of February, only a better month from January. I am not trying to try my best to have the bestest Month, but I will just be myself and allow the people around me to change all that negetive vibe.

All I want is that life I had then where Colours matters to me and Sweets were my every remedy.

I will be off to East Coast Park soon and I am feeling rather sneezy.
I have done nothing but sneezed the whole night. Right now, I am feeling rather tired because I did not have enough sleep after all that sneezing. Hopefully, today will turn out great.

Apparently, I got really confused with the years. I am still assuming that right now, it is still 2008 when it is 2009. And Kinne and Hubbi is teaming up on me and getting me this huge calender for my Birthday. By th time my birthday arrives, I am only left with about four more moths to use them. ahahaahah!!

Till then, take care people!!

Left-Right.

I just reached home from fetching Daddy at the Changi Airport. I know it isn't something and something I do every month. However, this time, instead of heading home straight, Daddy drove down to Hougang to get the lorry for tomorrow's Picnic.
*remember?? Daddy promised a Lorry-Ride?? hehe

So yes!! He got the lorry and drove it home while I company Mummy in the Family Car. Yea!!! Now can ride Lorry!!

It has been super duper long since we last had any lorry ride. I wonder how tomorrow will turn out. Hopefully, the weather is by our side. =D

Today, Hubbi will be helping Daddy and Wak Saad carry some stuff and moving it to another location. Cannot wait to see him later. Plus, I think my Wak Saad is dang cte because he is old and he understands English. ahahahh!! I guess I love all my aunty-uncles that knows and understand English, only because my Bahasa Melayu is going all over. ahahhh!!

Till then, take care people!! love love love Daddy.

Forgive me for the mix of years. I am still hooked on 2008. As we all, know I have not been writing any dates, confusing me with the point of time I am in. So yes! Wadeever it is, I am lazy to edit my lasy post. hehe.

Things around me have definitely changed since when??
Since I can remember anything.

In 2005, I met a perfect guy who is still by me till now and it was an adventure with him. There were ups and downs, but we both always try to work it out. He is, none other then my Hubbi M. Farhan. He is my Boyfriend, my Bestfreind and my Everything. He is still loved till this very second and my future.

In 2006, I found great friends, we started off with 7 but now break down to four of us. Jessica is off in the West for further studies while the other two does not seem to be as close as we're. But yea, the four of us left is just fine. They are Me, Kinne, Rose and Mus Fit. and we call ourselves ,Judes&Dude. Last year, in 2007, we went on to different school, except for Me and Kinne in Millennia Institute. While, Mus Fit remined in Northbrooks and Rose in Yishun JC. I would go to school with Kinne everyday. However, we found ourselves in a position that we are unable to meet up very often due to the clashes of school timings and distance too. However, we managed to catch up with each other on random days. Till now, we are where we are but I am no long in MI. While Mus Fit. does is 'O's this year and both, Rose and Kinne, does their 'A's.
But we still do catch up with each other.

In 2007, I met two very good friends in MI. One of them is in my class while the other, i am not really sure how we got stuck together. ahahhh!! But yea, they are Shoe and Zann. They are not all fancy, they are just being them. Zann will sing all that she wats while Shoe gets all blur, which is seriously hilarious. However, this year, its is alittle different for us where Shoe is still schooling in MI while I and Zann are waiting for our Polytechnic results. So yes, it has been hard for us to meet up. We three ladies live far from each other; One in Tampiness, the other in Khatib, while the last one in Kallang. ahahh!!

Well, whatever these downs and walls in my way, I will have to just climb over them and appreciate what I have.
I will appreciate what I have.

Till then, I miss Hubbi, and take care people.

My Business

these few days have not been the greatest or smooth. I have all this pain here and there from every other people that I appreciate and love. Some how, I feel I am not good enough and such word as "Useless" have been used to yell at me.

However, I share my life, my stories with those I trust. Hubbi is definitely in the list and one of the few I turn to.
Mainly because, "My Business Is Mine, and Making It Yours Does Not Seem Fair".

Till then, I miss Hubbi so much. I cannot see wait to see him this coming Sunday with the help needed by my dearly Uncle Saad. Take Care people!!

Today.
I feel very dead. I had nothing but fried rice. Plus, I have to iron the clothings. I feel rather WOWwee I need something to give me a boost in life.
I want a trip to some where, anywhere.
Today was suppose to be a whole day plan where I would meet up with my friends later in the afternoon and then head down to Bishan Princesses' place for a sleep over. However, that meet with my friend is not confirm, so I am left with Bishan's place.

I am so boring.

All day.

These days, I find myself having all this troubles. However, the come and leave, day after day.
It is obvious that I am pissed with such things. But I try to be calm with it.


yesterday was a whole day my MinahZann at her place. Thre were Chickens, Hotdogs and Wanton Shrimps involved. Unfortunately, Shoe had school and tarian, so she was unable to join us.
Both, Me and Zann, find it rather Gross to me staying at home with Nothing-ness, while everyone else is busy at school cracking their heads. I never want to feel this boring ever again.

SO anyway, Zann has thisnew blog that she had for some time now, and I only knew it Yesterday. ahahahh!! She said, she texted me, I guess my cellphone has been alittle kuku this few months;I guess it is old.

Talking about cellphones, it reminded me of Mus Fit. He would change his cellphone so often that the J&D lost count on the different cellphones he used. Apparently, he would change them at an average timing of, 1 every term or so. Ahahhh!!

I miss Hubbi. I have yet to meet him for some time now.
Till then, take care people.

Another day ruined.
I am starting to break down these days.
I guess I have problem with people bailing on me. Make me promises that they cannot handle.

I hvae someone using someone else's cellphone pretending they are them when they ain't, it shows how much you love to play around with my feelings and get me all confused.

I have another, promising one thing and decide to cancel on it.

I am not mean, just tough to talk to. I have a big heart, but when you come around, it closes. Only because you cannot or do not know how to respect a girl like me. you think you know, but you really have not a single clue anout me.

ou hav ethe guts to tell me not to emberess ou, but you emberess me making me think such friends are only worth to be ignore. But hey, you knew that someone is better than you, which instantly is your only concern. And I should not have a friend whom is better than you or make me feel good and comfortable around them, you are just plain selfish.

All this while, I thought yours friends were mean and bad people, but then, NO! it was you who made me think they are such person when you were the one making up stories. So what else is a lie or a pretend!!!??!

i am sick of such situation and I rather not be friend with you. I do not want to get that illness of yours, only because I know my parents have raised me right and I know which's which and what's what.

I cannot believe I have been fooled my you all this while.


i would like to cancel all plans except for this Friday's plan and FMY's picnic. Everyone else do not appreciate my time, neither do I then. SHo0o AWAY, YOU IDIOTOs!!

Just so we are clear. You are really all that selfish. You are willing to pull your friend's name so low that you still could live life with a smile. A person like you do not deserve any friends or anyone to trust you.

Seriously, when did I ever teach you to be selfcentered. Is this selfishness really you?? Because to me, it seemed like it is you.

You should not be managing my friendship and tell me who I can or cannot be friends with, when the fact is, you cannot even handle your own friendship.

You are so jealous over such friends that you are able to fool me and make he hate your friend so much over something he did not do, but you did.

It is obvious how ego overrule you like this.
It is obvious your friends do not deserve such a person like you.

"You want to know how selfish you are?
It is like me, getting you a tissue packet for your birthday and you do not appreciate it. That is how selfish you are."

In the end of the day, is the thought and determination that counts.

Guess Who??

About 15minutes ago, Mr Saw Seng Huat called me. ahaahahh!! He was like "Helloe? Herdawatiee huh? Mr Saw here. You must send the Withdrawal Letter, cause they cutting fee already. ahahh!! If can by today or tomorrow okay?? Huh?? okay?" Ahahahahah!! laughing my ass off by then, only because I remembered that he "merajok" on one of those teacheing days. ahahahh!!! He is an old Funny man.

The amazing day.

This morning was a fruitful one. I did the vegetable with Granny, did a modification on the Hangers' Bag and I sewed my very first button on my own. I guess I am pretty proud of myself.

Daddy is flying off soon and he is getting ready right now. I am truely going to miss him. Plus, he promised us a Lorry Ride when he gets home. Nothing else can be as interest as a lorry ride; well, maybe there are many more exciting things to do than these specific Lorry Ride.

By the way, I had texts from Roseria Nathan this morning and we were talking about some stuff, not a very personal topic though. Plus, she some how got me thinking and wanting to go get a bloody job while I wait for my results. I guess, she has always been my guide since Secondary four. Roseria Nathan, she a sweet and s great girl. If no guys treats her right, then no guy deserves her. Well, I do miss J&D though, eventhough our last meet up was about two weeks ago.

To ZannShoe: We will have our meet up soon okay?? okay?? Shoe, text us your free timings where Tarian and Soccer training isn't in your schedule.

Till then, take care people.
P.s:I miss Hubbi ALOT!! I cannot wait ill February is in.

Another day of Nothing-ness.
My back is aching because I have been working my ass of mum's sofa. I am dead bored.
For now, I am missing school and shopping too.

According to my bank account, I spent the most in 2008. I am sudden;y spending so much money without even thinking. How "selfish to myself" can I be. However, I am still dying for a new skate shoe and tons of clothings for my up-coming polytechnic life. I guess, most of my appearel are either bought by Mum or iven by someoone; except for one dress which I bought with my own money, !WOW! I guess I do ssave doing that too. Then again, I spent my mone on gifts and tons of food.
Apparently, I have been eating alot in 2008. ahahahh!!

Daddy will be ona business trip this Sunday. Where to? I have no idea, but this time, it is definitelt not any of Indonesia or Malaysia or Finland. I am going to miss him. However, he did promised us a Lorry Ride during Chinese New Year later. He is goin gto borrow it from work. hehe. I seriously cannot wait. Then again, I will have to get ready for the side effacts where my hair will get all tangled up and dust in my eyes.

In addition to the Chinese New Year plan, Uncle Baser planned to drive up to either Mersing or Desaru, if possible, Kuala Lumpur.
Plans. Plans. Plans.

Plus! These few days have been a very windy day. Trees are dancing in the afternoon and I had to wear my hoodie in the evening; And sometimes, socks too, when it gets cooler. If I have to compare any weather to this windy day, I will always prefer this windy day. Only because, it is windy but it have yet to rain. How cool it that??!! ahahahh!!

Tomorrow will be the 17th January,2009, which means, it woul be mine and Hubbi's 42th month together. I love him so much. I really do.

By the way, I was blog hopping over to Aini's blog, a friend of mine in madrasa, and found out they had a outing in 2008. However, I was not schooling in madrasa then nd I truely miss those girls. I have to admit I was kind of jealous when Latifa joined the class about 5 years ago, replace lovely Yuslina. Latifa just joined us and she actually topped the class. WOW! So yea, I have every right to be jealous. But after a few months, I guess she is a veri sweet girl. Aini will forever be that miss popular while Fathiyah is the "I talk as much as I want" girl. ahahah!! And I will the girl, "Last In Class" ahahah!! It is true though, but I am not proud of it. However, it is so expected for me to be last in class because I did not out in any effort at all. In fact, I did not study, we all sneak and opened the text book for answers as the teacher does what he had to do. ahah!! I guess the Ustaz is not very strict afterall. Then again, all I want to say is that I really miss those girls. *if only they would text me. DANG.

Ouhwell, till then, take care people!!

yesterday night, had a talk with my neighbour, sarah, and brother, jo.
we had talks about bikes & gangs & drugs & any random topic. however, i have to admit that i was alittle lost in between conversations. plus, it was nearing 12midnight. and most of us all know i sleep about 9.30pm everyday.

so yes, had alittle bond moment with Neighbour Sarah.

i'll to admit i am getting very bored and sick of this holiday that i am having this very moment. till den, take care people.

About You. I am rather bored and stuck at home. Not because I am grounded or anything close, just that everyone's in school but me. I am a failure and I am not proud of it.

Everyday seemed like a month to me.I am getting bored by the day.

It is rather interesting how lazy I am. I have yet to get out and find a job while I wait for my result. I feel like a Hippo right now; Plu Nenek cooked Tom Yum Soup for me today. Lovely Tom Yum Soup.

2009's in and I am enjoying mylf, I have lesser unhappy moments than I did last year; In fact, I think I have yet had that unhappy moment yet. Not that I am looking forward to any unhappy moments.

I have a Boyfriend who's been with me since 2005 and we still am in love. However, I shall post alittle about him, this is only because, he will not bother anything about my blog unless it is about him. Like !WOW!, I know. So if I do not bother to blog a thing about him, he will not care a single bit on visiting this blog of mine.
What-ever. SO yes! This Boyfriend of mine, with a name of M. Farhan Ani. He has been here and there and everywhere; He has been by my every single time. When I have that down turn on being such a person, he brought me up with a few words, "I love you the way you are." He would lend me a hand downup any and every stairs, only to realise my knees have not been very nice to me. Till now, I am still having that "clicking" in my knee. M. Farhan Ani, would give me a hug even when I do not need it. He would make me laugh till I am a little girl and talk about the lames and most clueless things on earth.
Others may look at us, thinking we have been together for a short period of time, when the fact is, we have known each other since 2005. ahahahh!! like, what-ever. Right now, he is doing well in school. In fact, he is in school right this very moment. And I truelly miss him. I guess this is one of the odd moment where he is the one busy while I am bored at home. Now, I know how he feels whem I was very busy back then. No matter, I just truely love him for all. Not forgetting, he is doing well, with the Tamoko Lions too. However, he will not be attending any trainings for now, only because he wants to get back to shape before he turns up for the next training. In fact, he is awarded for the Most Outstanding Forward;For those who has no clue what I am saying, "farward" is a position played in a rugby game. With or without that award, I will still love him.

Today's the 3rd of school for Roseria Nathan and Kinne Manan. I have heard alot from Kinne but none from Rose. *I'll text her later. Both Kinne and Rose have been the greatest, not forgetting, Mus Fit. Sulaiman too. Roseria has this insane gorgeous dressing that would impress me. Every single meet-ups, she will be wearing something new. Not forgeting, that Hot heels of hers. Like !WOW! I tell you. Plus, she is doing very well in her studies; But she is not a nerd, not a single bit. In fact, she wanted to study Law and some day be a lawyer. *I've always wanted to be a Lawyer when I was young.

Kinne have this whole lot of knowledge on band. Or basically Music. She have been all over music for a very long time.Today, she is the Vice-President of the MI Band. I am proud of her. She went for every band practice and worked really hard everytime when she is on her instrument. She is just talented. In addition, she is doing well in MI too.
*I know you miss going to school with me. hehe.

Right now, MusFit. is still studying in Northbrooks Secondary and taking his 'O's this year. He made it through his 'N' with 9 Points, if I am not wrong. I am proud of him. He did worked superduper hard on his 'N'. In addition, he is in loving with dancing. He is a great dancer. Not forgetting, he has a new phone every term, making him the most fortunate member in J&D. ahahh!! He does not seem to realise it till lately. We would yell in his ears and see his facial expression when we say "MUS!!! you got a newww phone AGAINNNN!!?!!" He knows we don't like it, only because we are jealous of him. Hwever, it is a good thing he did not show off his brand new phone everytime he change them. Plus, MusFit. is a nice guy and a total random one too. He will tell such nonsense joke which does not make any senses at all. He will make us laugh like there isn't another hour to live. He is simply a joker I shall say.

I am not much of anything. I have not done anything that anyone should be !WOW!ed at. So let the post end here for now. Till then, do tag my readers.

Wednesday Morning.

This very morning, I have decided to log in the choices I want by today. This morning, I texted Zann and Nadirah about their results and choices. This morning, Hubbi is off to school and is prepaid is low; I miss Him. This morning, I sent a text to Shikin that I miss her. This morning, I have decided to be a changed woman and not disappoint my parents ever again.

Once I have got my ass to polytechnic, I am going to do well and continue doing well. I want it to be like the old days in Primary school where nothing really matter but that continuos daily homework that never got me to sleep till 10.30pm by Mrs Cha; I still remembered her name alright.

Anywho, I think I owe my parents big time. For wasting a year. But all Mummy can do is compare me with Brother. So what if Brother have not been disappointing you. The reason there is not a single disappointment by him is because he has always been the lowest and everything seemed to be easy for him. I do not even think I should ever be compared to him. It is not fair how you treat me this way as though I have been the useless and lazy one. Like Whatever.

Yesterday was a day with Hubbi, and I will not be able to see him till 3rd February. Only because he is schooling and I am stuck at home. So as to say, he is busy. yea.

Till then, this morning I love.

Your Property.

I, Herdawati dwi Liyana Chumare, am glad to tell all out there that I love Hubbi, M. Farhan Ani, very much. Plus I am a property of his and he is a property of my.

Whatsoever it is, step one step away. =D
Till then, take care ya'll.

My Virgo Trip.

Last Wednesday, 7th January, I had a trip on the Super Star virgo with my family and Hubbi, plus Shida.
It was great. It was WOW. It is one of those things that you must do before the end of time.
Before checking in, I caught up with J&D. Mus Fit. is school and taking his 'O's this end of year, Rose will be having her 'A's this end of year and Kinne will be having her H1's done by this end of year; As for me, not really planned and focus yet. Sad.

So anyway, my trip. I will just list done the things I did.
Took tons of pictures; with the mascot too. Went for a swim. Played miniature golf. Kissed Hubbi. hehe. Chilling at the back of the cruise. Going to the front tip of the cruise. Went into a "Restricted 18" casino. Drank Mocktail. Ate tons of Hot Wings. hehe. Kissed Hubbi. Had ice cream. Went for a steam bath and sauna. Went to the gym with Hubbi. Hubbi piggy backed me. =D Played a game of carom and "connect four". Sat at the cabin's balcony. Saw the Captain of the cruise doing is thing; steering. And kissed Hubbi more. ahahahh!! Love him!!

Photos will be up, just not today. Feeling rather tired and restless. =D

Found Something.

Zann's Performance in 2008.
I missed her performance, but I still manage to watch her performance through youtube.com and still get to hear her sing everytime we are out together.

Irritaing.

It is amazing how irritating one could be.
Apparently, most truth hurts and it is impossible for one to continue denying the truth. right?

I feel.

It is amazing how suck-ish I feel right now. I have done so much to please those around me but not for me. I stayed home, be a good girl, helped alittle here and there. Watch over Granny. I mean, when does the goods ever come to me? Karma. Where's karma?
All I ever wanted was alittle fun in life. Why was I ever in this life? Wehn the fact is, we will all end up the same place, sooner or later; in the dirt. I mean, in the next life it depends, but why does this life have to exsist.

It is obvious this post is not a right one. Not even close to helping me an inch closer to what I really wished for. Whatever. I just feel Suck-ish right now. BALLzz.

Love.
I Love my M. Farhan ouh so dearly. It has been more than three years now that we are together and I still love him; As strong as ever.

Hubbi has a match over at West Coast today and I wish him luck; not that he really need my luck. hehe. He is simply good at what he does. No matter, win or lost, I still ove him and I know he did his best along with his team mates.

This Wednesday, I will be off for a cruise with my family and Hubbi along. I am really excited, with the fact that it is my first time on a cruise and to top it up, Hubbi will be there too!! hehehee.. I love him.

Brother Jo birthday is coming this March 19 and I have a rough idea of what I should get for him, but the issue is that I am not sure with he will really be !WOW! over the gift.

Anywho, yesterday was the first day of school and I have not heard any WOW-ness from MusFitri. I shall text him later. He will be taking his 'O's this year and I am proud of him.

Yesterday, was also a whole morning with my family. WE played tennis for two hours and,then after, bowling. I thing I am hooked on tennis and I think I am getting much better in bowling too. I am actualy able to take the lead when the rest of my family memebers took over me at the end of the game. hehe. I shall just try harder the next game.

Till then, take care people!!

New Year '09

In 2008, I have experience so much more.
The big distance between my school and Hubbi's is not tearing us apart, but it was a challenge. Still, I do love him no matter. I joined Cheerleading for the very first time and I even manage to be the flyer, eventhough I was afraid of heights. The J&D manage to sort our timings to have meet-ups and dance session. I had my very first Sleep Over at Rose's with J&D and Hubbi. And not forgetting, I had a very different countdown from the past years; I have my countdown done with Hubbi and the Sembawang Park and we manage to see six different fireworks at the same time.

This year, 2009, I would really love to grow at least 5cm taller than I am right now; If possible, teller. I appreciate to have myself put on my retainer often and have my, unperfect and painful, feet fixed.

As much as you all know I do not like to sweat, but I think I am starting to love tennis. Like Zann said, "I think you are the only one that does sports during your free time." ahahahh!! She is so drama.

Till then, pics will be up.