Dear SugarplumFairy,

tonight went great till one line ruin my mood. i will have to admit that i have been very sensetive than i was as i grow older. gees. i had nothing but pure tears in my eyes. when i flip up my hair, there my eyes were red. my face was wet and so was my PJ. i have been hurt too many times before, and i should not make this such and big deal.
i don't really know why i actually bother to make that call when i know it will be dang akward. why am i such an ass??
i seemed to be going through the same thing over and over again. am i suppose to feel this hurt when it happened before? i should be used it right?
i am very petulant.

it is so obvious how i try to make things work for everyone. i will forever try my best to be on time or at least, early. life have truely thought me a lesson; never have high expectations on anything.
i have been hurt because of my bloody expectaations, when the expectations have not been reached.
somehow, i always try to do things in the most complicated way so that most of my time is used up, and not wasted. i try my very best appreciate what i have & what is given. i try my best not to complain. i am, however, petulant. i am also a control freak, or maybe alittle. i eat alot when i am down or when it rains.
my first line to meeting a new friend would be very default, "what is your name?", "my name is Herda, but you can call me Herdy if it is too difficult for you to pronouce."
i have issues traveling alone. let's just was, a phobia that i have, that not many of my friends know.

till then, this is me.

I will have to admit that they both have the same reaction upon something. *anyway, this photo is from Ms. Hana, a new *cousinfriendfar related, someone I just said "hello" to randomly at the wedding.

Anywho, I will be starting the orientation tomorrow. !wow! fast I shall say. Later today I will be out with MinahZann to watch a movie.

Dear Sugarplum Fairy,
Three weeks? Something very long. Maybe, probably its the duration for me to comfirm whatever how I feel. ***there is so much I want to say but very hard for me to express.it has alot to do wth how i feel and think.i shall just end it here and leave it hanging.

I miss the fact that I used to be busy then when I had Sschool. I have been waking up kind of late during this holidays and I am hoping that it will not affact me when I start schooling, real soon.

Being in Polytechnic would mean that there is not such a thing as Physical Education period. I am very afraid that I might gain weight. =D

Yesterday had my weekly NDP raining at Krani Camp and I was not in mood for it. I was tired and hungry, however, I managed to pull thru the night.

Rght now, Baby Baeisely is sleep tight beside me in her Minnie Mouse PJ. ahahahh!! I thought of going off to watch the movie C.O.S this morning on my own, when Baby suddenly Popped by. SO yes! Cancelled.
Planning to go Galere tomorrow, any bstfrds interested? Text me!

I am craving for a converse high cut for about 2 or 3years now, and I am not really sure if I still want it. I don't mind have a shoe collection but I have got no space more. I really want to have a collection of rings too, those big ones.

SO anyway, I have my daily flu and I hate hate it, especially when my hom ran out of tissues. Till then, blowblow.

The best wedding ever. Cousin Aslinda had her wedding at the Aranda County Club's ballroom. it was a all-in-one. The girl's and the boy's is in one place. Saving time on the trip. They said their vows in the morning about 9.45am and the welcoming of others started at about 1pm.

It was a dabng nice and touching wedding. Her husband, abang Zuraidi, had this slideshow of photos and even played a song aa sang to kak Aslinda.

The reason the picked on this very day is because, 7 years back, 28 March was the day they were together. How sweet.

I was so touched and happy that they are finally together. Cousin Aslinda was the only cousin that remebered my name and knew I exsisted. She is dang sweet. She is a PE teacher in a primary school. She just stopped playing contact and touch rugby, and is still continuing to play netball. She look so soft yet so tough. She is so different. I envy her. PLus, she is a smart lady too.

Love her, and her wedding. I wish Kak Asi, 'many babies'. hehe.

Ps:I will most her husband face on another post. hehe.

yesterday today tomorrow sunday next week.

i'd love a new skirt to replace my Revoltage one.
i'd love that calculator watch which I have been waiting for the last two years.
i will appreciate a new skate shoe to replace my Secondary 2 Gallaz skate shoe.
i need a new wallet to replace my "going to tear apart" Roxy wallet.
i would really love that shiny shiny black beanie from Flash&Splash; Stussy.
i do not mind if you would like to get me a bag. i love Bags.
i really will not mind with you would like to get me those Popeyes Biscuits.
or a hug and a card will just do.

i am a lady with tons of patience.
i speck out my mind.
i stand for what i think is right.
i love love soft toys; since young till now.
i am shy.
i am a nerd.
i am petulant.
i love my family.
i do not complain.
i think positively.
i am a smiley person.
i a cranky when i am tired.
i am a morning person and i sleep early.

till then.

Remember that day when I sat on the stool while you sat on the bed? And we were talking and you said a whole lot of things that you could remember back in the past. There were tears in your eyes and mine too.

Remember the other day when you said I am all that you want to be with? Is it really true??

It seemed rather sad for me to be thinking of all this when all I wanted is to "Keep Moving Forward". ahahah!! *Meet The Robinsons.

Love.

I miss Hubbi so much. I get Butterflies in my Stummy when I am meeting him. I guess I am nervous and excited at the same time. I love him dearly. How I feel right now cannot be expressed in words. However, one things for sure, I Miss Him. I want to hug hug him!

Next Wednesday I will be starting school. I am excited to WRITE once again. I have not been writing for months now. And this break was not put to good use at all.
The last time I went to Tioman was when I just learnt swim, probably when I was 4-5years old I could not remeber much of the place. The only thing I remebered was Jumping on the Bed with Brother because both of us had the whole room to ourselves with no mummydaddynenek around for the very first time. Then, I was afraid of the dark, but Mummy made sure I slept tight before she had her rest. ("_)

Love is in the air.

Today is "My Birthday". ahahh! * would you fall for it??

Anyway, I feel very, WOW-wee. What's WOW-wee, I think its is more that "excited". Only because Hubbi's Holiday has reached and now I have him all to myself. Veeee.

I was bloghopping to Rose's blog and the last sentence she worte is "*I'm not racist". For a moment I am like "???". Then now I am like "???????". So anyway, I guess she is just super busytied up with school work that... ?I have no idea what she is trying to say?. ahahahh!!
I am as many more "???" as I was 5 minutes ago.

Till then, taking care people!

Today is Wednesday and MinahZann will be landing late night, tonight. I wonder how Bei Jing is like. Mummy been there once, but there was not much photos from her because she was not very good with cameras. Anywhoo, I am looking forward to hearing from MinahZann when she reaches Singapore.

Today will be a day with J&D. WAIT!! I just remembered I did not upload a single photo on our "COMBO" day. ahahhH!! I shall when i have the time to "copy, paste, browse and upload" into my blogger. =D

A few more days till Hubbi's 3weeks holiday! *million dollar smile.

By the way, have I stated that Baby is sleeping over at my place while her DaddyMummySisterBrother is at Tioman? Well, she is here. She has been a very good girl. She did not cry as much as she used to then when she was younger. the thing about her is that, when she smilelaugh, there is no voice coming out of her mouth. Plus, when she criesyell, her mouth is closed; Meaning, that noise in compressed in that very small mouth of hers. ahahh! I find it very very very weird of her to do that.

Till then, take care people. Plus! Syaz and Me are happy people with our new laptop from the IT SHow! =D

Most of my friends and BF knows how I hate it when others mispronounce my name. So yesterday while I was at NTUC near my block, I raninto Jeremy. Yup! That jeremy who blew Bubbles in class with Ms Ling was teaching. He called me "HIDAYAH" confidently; Straight away I was like "YOU HEAD". ahahahh!! Sorry Jeremy, for being so meanfierce to you. ahahh!

All I wanted from a long lost person who I have yet to see is good chat and laughter. Not a whole lot of favour to do. I mean, there if that is the way you are going to treat me, "Turning back when you need help" then you are totally using me!

Plus, its amazing how only my friends reply me in a snap when I am Mad. Just to make it straight, you do not want too see or hear me mad.

Well, have ya'll heard of the song "Mad" by Neyo. I just figured out the song. Apparently, I can sleep Mad at you. I guess, my feelingsemotions are numb.

What do you think? TEXT ME!

Today is Monday and is the first dat of the March Holidays. So what if does not concern me, it does to a small extent, my friends are having holiday and I cannot wait to meet up with them.

Apparently, this Thursday is the 19th of March, which means that Brother is turning a year older; And I am not looking forward to it. Only because I do not think I have the best gift for him. ("_) Like whatever, it is not like I am working.
However, it seemed like he knew what to get me for my Birthday every year.That is only because I do not have all the thing I want or need with me. I would rather waiting for the particular thing to be on SALE than to get it at such high prices, and usually, by then the people around me will nkow what i need or want and I will get that particular thing as a gift for my birthday.

As for Brother's case, he has everything he needs and wants. All he do is ask for it and give an unhappy face when he did not receive it. Dang! what a brat. Then again, he can be a very fun guy to be with. In fact, I think he actually bothers to spare me his 15minutes when I did not know what to wear. ahahahh!!

So anyway, I am missing Hubbi so much. Good thing his holiday starts next week. ahahahahh!! =D LOVE HIM!!

Till then, take care people!

Bintan was good. Took tons of pictures, I shall upload it when I have the time. So anyway, this shall not be draggy nor long for all you readers, I will keep it simple.
Tuesday was the day for dry activities. I rode the *Dune Buggy with Kak Nur while the others rode the ATV. The scenery was a bomb. and played Pool too, lost to Cousin Lizza Twice. Then we travelled down to *Tangjung Pinang for Dinner. It was a one hour 30minutes ride there just for dinner. ahahahh!! Adn got a temporary tattoo from Pasar Oleh-oleh. I had the word "Bintan" above a flower. ahahahh!! Very "tourist" of me to be doing that. And bougth a carton of "Teh Botol". I love their Teh Botol, it taste very TEH-ish. ahahh!

Wednesday was a day of wet activities. Collected Sand into a glass bottle for Hubbi. hehe. Then I and Cousin Lizza went for Body Board. And at alot at the cafe. ahahahh! In the night, we had a mni BBQ. then I knocked off pretty early.

Thursday, back to Singapore.

I had a good time in Bintan. However, I missed Hubbi alot. Plus, there were tons of smoking happening in that veri villa and I was not fine with ciggerates in the room. I stink with stupid cigg smell every single day and I hate it! Plus, there were alcohol too and I did not feel very safe. Plus, there were unnecessary quarrels and yelling. I felt very emberessed. like VERY!! HATE IT!! Till then, I shall say I prefer staying home for that Four Days than to go to Bintan. Afterall, I am now feeling unwell; from the ciggs. I mean, all my friends know I get really sick breathing in such air, and my family do not even bother?? WHAT THE HELL sia. I try to appreciate that I am at Bintan where some people do not even get the step out of Sinagpore, but all this "badness", I would rather stay home. Till then, till then.

Yesterday was a whole out with my friends. Had this Milo Thing going on and received a free crocs of my own. I feel so, WOW!. ahahahah!! I never really thought I would get a crocs in my life. So yes! They gave away free Jibbitz* too, all of us can take as much as we want to. =D

So anyway, I was stationed at the Bike Team thing. Ahahahahh!! My partner is Shahidah. We both got really wet in the heavy rain. ahahhh!! It was something different for me though. It has been like years since I last played in the rain. Good thing I wore proper wear so that nothing is revealed, *if you know what I mean. ahahahh!!

I did received calls from Hubbi, he was worried about the "heavy rain" and "me" put together. ahahhh!! So sweet.

So after that, headed down to Plaza Singapura to watch nus Fit dance at the Dance Works '09. he did great. Then after it was the whole moment with J&D. I treat all of them to Choco Fondue. =D There were lots of "cling-clangg!!"; "Glass dropping" ahahahh!! And we still could laugh over it. We were center of attraction, i shall say.

I am missing Hubbi so much.

To top the misses, I will be off to Bintan tomorrow and will only be back this coming thursday. I will miss Hubbi so much. *I want hug. ("_)

Till then, take care people. 

J&D have been looking forward to today. I and Kinne will be off to Sentosa soon and then it will be a afternnon at Mus' comptition at Plaza Singapura. Then after will be a celebration of Kinne's 18th Birthday.

Let me just say that it sure is going to be a "PlannedUnplanned Saturday". We will just see how things go later. =D

Till then, take care people!

In a few hours time, it will be Kinne's 18th birthday. Eventhough we, J&D, were unable to celebrate it tomorrow, we have decided to have a combo meet up this Saturday. It will be a day on volluteering and Mus' Dance Works Competition and Kinne's 18th celebration.

I have everything planned out, however, I will know the "planned" will go "unplanned" as it always do. ahahhh! So yes, that's that.

Today, I managed to meet Hubbi. Woho0o0o!!! hehe.

I was awake since 4am and I managed to talk so much today when I was out with MinahZANN and Kinne, which lasted till about 8.30pm. I am so super.

Rain, rain;
Go away;
Let Boyfriend Be Home Safe Today.

This Morning, Hubbi had to come over to my place to collect his project that I helped him printout last night before I went to sleep. I had Granny to pass it to him if I was not awake on time. So yes! Hubbi called home and I rang me awake, and Granny opened the door. By the time I tried to I got off my bed to sneak-a-peek on Hubbi, he has already walked off by then. I was rather sad to not be able to see him, it has been about a week since I last saw him. It felt more like a month.

Anywho, I think Hubbi pampered me too much. ahahahh!! He would rub off the pain I have, eventhough I know I will heal. hehe. I guess, I will call it "sweet of him". He did not even make a sound, when I sleep so much when I am with him. Not because he is boring, but because, it is just so HERDY TO BE SLEEPING ALOT. He calls me his "Sleeping Beauty"; but i think I am his "Little Princess". hehe. I really cannot wait to see him when we have a comman free time.

When school starts, I will be able to see Hubbi more than usual as we are going to the same way, "YIO CHU KANG". So what! If it is only a station away, at least I managed to spent that short moment with him.
I love you, M. Farhan. Sayang Sayang Sayang.

Today was the audition for the National Day Parade. It was rather fun, much more fun than last year's. Hehe. There were lots of toe pointing and hands swinging and twirling; To me, it is something like Ballet. *maybe.

I love this year's dance moves, however, I am still not sure if I will truely be joining this year.

However, today was a reunion with the last year's NDP mates.
I really have to say this "So what if you are not joining this year. You have no right to bully me, Mister Adi. I am going to hit your head. *HIT.HIT. ahahahahh!!"

Okok, till then, take care people. I miss you Hubbi.