90210 is only up on the TV every Tuesday evening. I manage to watch it only on random Tuedays because I usually forget what's on TV. ahah!! So yes! I manage to catch the last season finale episode and I am looking forward for the next season. I know it sounds ridiculous, buut I think this is the only show where you actually know what is going on eventhough I did not fully catch up with the episodes.

I miss Roseria Nathan.

Today was totally unplanned. I had the worst morning and the greatest afternoon and evening.
I find myself not showering till later inthe afternoon, I cried and teared the whole morning being mad at myself for not goign around and about during this short holiday of mine. Seriously, I miss the fun that I used to be. I used to bring my camera on every outing, i used to carry Brother's crumpler sling bag so that I have my home keys and what not. However, it seems like I have been traveling really light. I try to stuff everything in my pocket; iPod, ezlink card, Nets, eye drop and money.
So yes! You will realise that I did not mention Home Keys. These days, my habit would be, when I reach the front of my home gate, I would call home and get someone from the inside to open up the door for me. That habit is taught from my brother. As much as I do not wish to do whatever Brother does, I just always find myself following right behide him. Seriously, I have to stop all the bad habits. like SERIOUSLY!


People, ALDO heels are to dir for. Their heels are mostly so HOT. ALDO accessories are also not bad. Then again, all of cost alot. So so expensive, indeed. I will like to admit that I am in love with teddyBears; the cute ones only, not the act cute ones. I love to see the airplanes fly by. Airplanes are pretty cool. I hate ferry rides,, they make me sick and puke; long taxi rides too. I love 306. I love green tea. Green tea is like the BOMB.

I know a boy who does not eat ICE CREAM! Which kid does not eat ice cream. He drinks nothing but Milo and Mineral Water. Seriously, this kid is missing alot in life, and he managed to live for the past 12 years. ahahah!! Apparently, that kid is my cousin, Afiq Rayyan Sulaiman. hehe.

Till then, Take care people!

Guess who I ran into today?? SHERYL! Yes! That sexy little hot Sheryl from MI. Apparently she was part of PA's performance in NDP. ahahh!! So my plan for now is to get to her every FINALE and hopefully spent loads of fun time dancing with her during the After Mass. Hopefully she does not gte lost. ahahh!!

In case ya'''l have been wondering how long I have joined NDP, I think it should be about my 5th year this year. Or more. ahahh!! So Yes! I pretty much know how everything will be and where you should be for fresh air. Either be the most front or the last.Trust me, you would not want to be in the middle bacause everyone will super duper stink badly. ahahah!! and the toilet, would not want to rely on it too much. Okayokay, till then, I miss you load SHERLY! You peranakan girl!

Last Tuesday was a whole day with the Judes at OCC. Today was a whole day at OCC with Afiq Rayyan, M Farhan Ani, Faiz and *Faruq. Seriously, I had fun. Then again, the sun was as hot as ever. It was as though I was having another NDP practice. Faruq played really well, he made us look like a fool. ahahh!! So yes! Anyway, I had fun playing tennis with them.
Then after, the guys went for gym while I and Afiq Rayyan went for a swim. We played, dive-for-the-shades. ahah!! He was not really good at diving. In the end of the day, I had fun and BURN. ahahah!Then after headed home.

At about 6pm, I ent down to Khatib station to meet up with the guys again and went to the park to take pictures with Mr. Faruq's Cannon camera. it was like !WOW! Not forgetting, M Farhan Ani gave me a lift to clime the tree. Seriously, I did not even bothered how ridiculous I was. However, I sure had fun. Like, SERIOUSLY! I Did!


Till then, I love pictures!!
PS: Rest in Peace, MJ.

it is 0835 on a Tuesday morning. i am dead sleepy and i am now in school, WebDesign? seriously, i drag myself out of bed, into the shower. i dragged myself to put on my sneakers and i dragged myself to school. that is how dead i am today.


yesterday's the past, tomorrow is the future and today will determine my future. because today is Tuesday and yesterday 's Monday and tomorrow's Wednesday, I have nothing to lose but the past.

So yes!! School holiday has been exteded. And school will seriously be closed next week. Meaning, the whole classroom will be locked and what not. Thank God I decide to come down to school today to have my Web Design Project done. For now, i am feeling very lucky that I actually carried my arse to school eventhough I am dang lazy. hais.
I am hopping that my classmates will be able to go for tennis sessions this coming week since school's close.


Ouh MinahZann, why did you not reply me?? Ithought we were suppose to meet up today?? You ssaid you would text be the night before, but I did not get any texts from you. Are you okay?? Please do call me. *Hugz okay Minah! =D


I am hungry. I am craving for bagels. More bagels please. Plus, cream cheese. I love bagels. I thank Roseria Nathan for introducing me to bagels. I did not know bagels exsisted till you introduced it. I LOVE YOU BAGELS! You are delicious and you make me full!! Then again, I feel for suar donuts. Plus, GREENTEA ICE CREAM!!


I miss the fact that I am usually so hard working in school and I actually paid attention in every lectures and classes. Ouhwell.... till then, I am glab I have one assignment down. =D

Seriously, i am pissed. No doubt. And when i am pissed, you know how I can be. We have been friends for sometime now. When you bailed, the vibe changed, and now, I doubt I know what is going on anymore. So tell me! What The Hell Is Going On?!!

Today will be a whole day home for me. I have been on the computer for about an hour now and I have not even get started with my Projects. Ouh please please please give me the vibe for me to be very hardworking. ouhplaese please please.

Apparently, in the chinese paper, school have been exteneded for another week for me. How cool is that??
Till then, ouhpleaseplease make the this extension of holidays confirmed.

I managed to get tennis session with the Judes. We were not very goodd I would have to admit, but the quality spent was worth it. We managed to play bowling, went swimming andd sat in the sauna. We spent about 5hours in Orchid Country Club. ahah!! My longest stay at there. It was superb fun, No Doubt We had 'Mission Power' going on and I forced Kinne to dive down and grab my shades in the middel of the olpymic pool. ahahh!! Plusplus, we played a short slide which was pretty fast. And we paid only S$2.70 for our lunch. Sauna was breatheless. ahah!! Kinne and Rose was complaint How the Hell Do People Breath In Sauna? ahahah!! They were cranky alright. then after, we headed down to Northpoint and sadly, Roseria Nathan did not manage to get her Boys Over Flowers today because they were all Out Of Stock. She was sad alright. ("_)


I find myself in a siatuation where I actually seem to know others better. The thing about me is that noone gets away with anything easily. I am tough, I know i am. He said he is better, but he gave up. What does this mean?? Not forgetting, he admits his weak. So why again is he better. He can choose to annoy me and make me feel like a fool, but somehow he forgets his dream can turn into a nightmare. All this while, I am independent, everyone knows that, but do you? I had high hopes on me never leaving, but do you deserve me? Or at least, do I deserve to me hurt? Do I? You can tell me that, that is your flaws and what not, but have I not warned you to stop annoying me then? I no longger have patience for you. Have I not warned you to pray for hope? Have I not gave you signs? Why do you always have to force me to hurt you so much? We both know you are strong, but you choose to be weak. You chose to give up. Wasn't there any choice?


Dear Sugarplum Fairy,
It hurts to know I did not know the ones around me well enough. It hurts to know that someone around me just gave up, when all I have tried to do is puch all my friends. Have I failed at giving advice? Iss anyone taking me seriously? So why do i feel so small once again eventhough I know I am up there. It seems as though I will break down once again because I have kept so much. I aam sad, Yes I Am, I will not deny the fact that I am feeling sad. I hear lines like "Don't Cry Cause It's Over..Smile Cause It Happened..", what is this line suppose to mean?? accept the fact? Well, have I not told my friends to think positively and just accept the facts and truth? Okayokay,, I also just realise the was not a single trust. Till then, Hushhush. I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, I never needed strain
My love for you is strong enough you should have known

I never needed you for judgment
I never needed you to question what I spent
I never ask for help, I take care of myself I don't why you think you got a hold on me

And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything for you to say
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So look at me and listen to me because

I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you to say a single word
Hush hush, hush hush, there is no other way
I get the final say because

I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush hush, hush hush, I've already spoken
Our love is broken, baby, hush hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how I act to what I say
I never needed words, I never needed hurts
I never needed you to be there everyday

I'm sorry for the way I let go
From everything I wanted when you came along
But I am never beaten, broken not defeated
I know next to you is not where I belong

And it's a little late for explanations
There isn't anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So you will listen when I say, baby

I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you to say a single word
Hush hush, hush hush, there is no other way
I get the final say because

I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush hush, hush hush, I've already spoken
Our love is broken, baby, hush hush

No more words, no more lies
No more crying
No more pain, no more hurt
No more trying because

I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you to say a single word
Hush hush, hush hush, there is no other way
I get the final say because

I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush hush, hush hush, I've already spoken
Our love is broken, baby hush hush

Hush hush, hush hush, I've already spoken
Our love is broken, baby
By PCD Hush Hush

Ouh God, ouh please please please can i have that Calculator Watch that I have been craving for. Plus, I really want want want that 20bucks high cut, please have my size. Pretty please.

So anyway, todday, 20th june 2009, and just reached home from my weekly NDP training. today was rather dry. And yesterday was a Class BBQ with th EI0902 at East Coast Park. It was a rather short BBQ though, MumDad fecthed me and headed home. Managed to play frisbee with the class, and seriously, Dark Sky and frisbee do not go well with each other. ahahah!!

Not forgetting tomorrow is father's Day, apparently I am not as excited as Mother's Day. ahahah!! =D And tomorrow will be a whole day out with the whole family for the whole day. I am sure it will be very KECOH. Then again, they are always that way. hehe.

I am rather tired, so yes! Imma have my rest now. Till then, missing the Minahz!

I spent today with the Judes; Kinne and Rose. I guess the only reason we love each other and appreciate each other is because we actually do not try so hard to impress each other and me ourselves. Eventhough J&D has a different personality from each other, we are as close as ever!

I like the fact that we have different personality. It is like, what is the point being with someone having everything the same as you. Get what I mena? The style you wear will be the same as her. The way you talk will be the same. Where is the originality? Whose's following who?

I am not fake I am just me. I do not wish to be you nor follow you. I am petulant, I know. I am chosy, I know. I have my own originality and I would love to be diffrent from the rest.
*to those who are reading this, please do not step you wanna different just beacuse I am and I wish to be unique.

I have a soft heart. But I am strong. Stronger than any girls that I know. If you think you are strong than me, then I will tell you a story why I am stronger than you.

the only reason i insisted on you coming over was because ii thought you have changed. you blamed on your alarm clock. ALARM CLOCK?! what the hell. so much for first impression. and it is rather annoying how there was only one topic the whole day and it was nothing to do with me and you. ouh come one! are you really that boring!?! it is as though i can never talk to you about anything under sun. i'd rather stay an arm away from you.

i see beutiful pictures at deviantart.com

beautiful sunday. and tomorrow will be monday.

i could vividly remember that day when we were out to get your birthday gift. the pink mp3; do you remember?? you were so excited for that mp3 that you were so willing to get the pink one because the rest of the colours were out of stock. ahahah!! I still remembered how excieted your face wash. i was so glad i made you so happy that day eventhough it was a super short shop day out. that face, that smile that every moment was priceless. and that stairs at the train station where you opened the box of your new mp3 because you could not wait till you got home or till your actual birthday. ahahh!!

Because today is the last day of school before the term break starts, I decided to go out with my classmates. Had ice cream buffet at Novena with dear Yu Zhu, Jeslin, Eunice, henry and Haikal. It was !WOW! love the waffles cube ouh so much!

Then after, dear jeslin and YuZhu and Henry had to go off. It was about 6pm by then after the buffet and it was down to the three of us, Me Eunice Haikal. So what we did was to walk down froom Novena all the way to angmokio, it was about 8.45pm when we reached AMK. ahaha!! It was a long walk indeed. then again, I enjoyed the view. He laughed and talked ALOT! trust me, when you have friends like haikal and eunice, nothing can ever be cold or boring. ahahah!!
*We will do it again soon okay??! without our bags and with sports shoes. Deal?! =D

Till then, my feet sort of sore right now. Goodnight.

I headed home with Dear Eunice today and we ssat down at Khatib's platform for about 30minutes just to have a small talk. The thing is, it is easier for me to talk and relate to her about anything. She is as open as I am and I am as open as ever. We are born in August and are only four days apart. We are both LEOs and maybe the way we are, are similar in a way. hehe.


Anyway, Dear Wanie Dear, Noor Haikal has a center parting eh?? ahahah!! *laughing my ass off!!

Till then, take care ya'll.

Apparently, I find myself giving other surprises. I love surprises, no doubt. I love the fact that my heart would jump when something popped up in my face. Then again, I have never been surprised before. even if it was, I would somehow know it was coming.
I do not like the fact that I would have to say and ask for a surprise, then it will not be a surprise any longer. I guess noone around me is ever sweet enough to bother to surprise me.

!WAIT! I just remembered J&D surprised me with Lovely Cupcakes for my Birthday last year. ahahh!!
*other than that, duleduledule.

I like cards made from their and heart and not bought. I love those helium ballons flying above my head, it just seems to make me a happier person. I love cakes, I like the part where I get to blow out the candles. && the best part ever, receiving gifts and cards. ahahah!! now i sound so choosy. I am such a brat. And to top that, I would love cameras, paparazzi. I want to my the Famously-Unfamous Lady. hehe.

Then again, the well-planned plan will never go as planned, but will go totally unplanned. ?Get Me? So yes! The best is to go unplanned and not waste our time planning.
Please do surprise me at any point of time. I love surprises. Get me M&Ms or Green Tea and I will still be touched as ever. Do something unexpected. get what I mean?? Till then, I will ask for more stuff. I do not want to be a spoilt brat, but I just want to be Pampered. I would like to be your Pampered-Petulant Girlfriend. hehe.

After a day of good times with Wanie andd Kinne dear, I feel like as though everything seemed the way it is. I suddenly realise the real me and the old me I used to be.

Another night and another day just went by, and suddenly I am missing you for once. Not really sure why, but maybe the old me is back. Back to where it was suppose to be 2months ago. ahah!!

Tonight I will try to SURPRISE kak Fiz with a midnite text! Who00o0. I love her dearly. I really do.

So anyway, I am starting to tear away from you. Eventhough we are old footsteps away. I find it hard o communicate with you after that incident. You barely spoke t me and I barely talked to you. Everything seemed to be a huge gap between us.
I gtg, till then, im off for dinner.

its been warm the whole day.
i feel for ice cream.
i want sushi too.
i want that triangle green tea ice cream in town.
i want that blue tin, bitter lemon drink in ntuc.
i want the earth to be cool.
Stop Global Warming.

MAny many times I have told you to give me the space that I want. The butterflies from my Stummy has all flown away. You ain't very special already.

I get annoying texts from you. I get hate note from you. I get assumptions from you when we both know it ain't true. To top that, you drill me down with those assuptions and I am forced to agree with as so to shut you up. Then again, you just went on and on.

As all these days go by, I truely feel nothing for you anymore with all this shits. Not a single bit. Trust me when I say you are annoying. You gave me nothing but STRESS. You may have given me the most Peaceful Saturday, 060609, but Sunday was the worst. It does not make any difference, no doubt.
My heart ach just to see I received a text from you on my cellphone, only because I know it will not be the greatest texts from you. You are tha PAIN in my arse. You have been the PIN that is poking me. You have been the BUG in my bed bugging be on a daily basis.

So pease please please stop all this. Give m ethe space I need. Give me back my joy by not texting me unless you are in good terms with me.
You annoy me. You are no longer the person that gives my Butterflies in my Stummy, they have all flown away so far.

I am not over reacting but I am simply telling them all from my heart.

Till then, Then.

Apparently, there isn't any trust no more. Why do I have to hear it from someone else. Why you got to treat me like this? Why can't you say it in my face? Because you don't me that well?? For after how many years now. Ouh gees. You are such a coward.

Why is noone ever so open anymore? I guess maybe you are away for way too long that you don't even know me well enough to talk to me.
P.s: this is not for MFarhan

I guess I go to the extend of making sure noone knows me well, that seriously noone knows me truely.
I reallil don't know what to do now. It seemed like I am such a stranger to everyone. Then again, I do not like the idea of having someone who know's me so well.
I want to be different from you, you and you. So what if the theory is EVERY IS DIFFERENT, i still think there is always something similar in either you or you or you. Call me crazy, but I just want to be different from different. Get What I mean?

Thanks to her, I just had my Tuesday Morning Ruin.
Till then, Gees.

For today everything seems fair to me. Ms Kamalan managed to forget about her make up lesson and I managed to get started on her Role Play project. After school, managed to discuss about the Parachute Project. Fair enough, I am so tired after the whole day. A fruitful day indeed.

I have much to do this Semester break. Lots of project due in the same week. Seriously, all I want is my high GPA.

By the way, rant about me watching hannah Montana the Movie?? Well, I did watch it. Mr. Haikal helped me with it. ahah!! So nice to watch!!! THANK YOU HAIKAL!!!

Till then, I need to sleep earlier from now on. =D